hello frens! long time since i update.. as u may noe.. currently i am sent to hell for 6 mths before i can ascend back to earth -_-".. serious.. my attachment really hectic..it sucks life-form out of me everyday..
everyday i feel stress seeing my mentor.. he'll drill me whenever he feel free.. mental torture everyday.. haiz.. but i tell myself muz be strong..overcome tis 6 mths and i'm sure i am ready for future worklife becoz i been through the hardest type of ppl to deal with..
since day 1, i been hoping to leave the attachment already..but it seems God wans me to stay O.o.. each time before i make a move in attempt to leave the attachment, i prayed for guidance..but somehow ah.. there's always interference or sth to stop me..
i approached my family.. my aunty have lots of working experience..and she have worked with all kinds of ppl b4..from honest and kind, to cunning and evil.. lol.. so basically i typed a letter intend for sch to request going back sch for attachment.. thn my aunt say my letter too..unprofessional haha.. she helped me edit here and there.. so the letter was ready.. i waited for a gd time to send it.. coz if i was to make such request after only a week of work, most probably sch will say "u been there for a week only.. give urself more time etc #$% craps". So i endured another 2 weeks? thn was about to send when my bro and his gf step in.. they say it will be better if i call my sch officer, give a brief description first, thn send letter.. so ok i listened..
i called the sch officer bt no one answer leh.. i tried calling for a week u noe! i prayed and called, prayed and called.. no answer! I tot the officer in some course or overseas..thn one day after work, i told my fren i tried to call for a week alr but no one ans.. thn she ask me try again..so i try and tis time someone answered..
"may i speak to henry leung plz?"
"oh tis is the wrong number. his number is x~~~~~~y"
i saves the wrong no. =x hahaa.
So nxt day i tried calling.. officer pick up.. *gt hope liao*!
thn he say he dont have the power to transfer me though he dont mind me going back sch to help him in his project.. he's a pretty nice officer la.. he gave me encouragement etc.. thn he asked me to approach the one in charge of yr3 attachment programme.. at tat moment ah.. i noe all hope lost..cuz the person in charge of the attachment programme..i heard gt reputation one.. lol..Amen.
i waited for another week la.. (4th week) coz the more i endured the higher my chance mah.. so one day during lunch.. i prayed and called lor.. her reply was no..haiz knew it..thn she gave me encouragement and asked me solve it myself..she ask me tok to the supervisor (boss of my mentor).. i reply oh ok..but i didnt do it coz.. look:
me gives xyz to supervisor..
supervisor gives XYZ to mentor..
mentor gives xyz(XYZ) to me..
in the end i will recieve xyz(XYZ) leh..
haiz.. so endure lor.. sometimes i make mistakes thn he will xzy me..thn say if nt interested i can leave.. sometimes i wan do tat u noe.. but sth juz prevent me from doing so.. thn gt once i really cant tahan..decided to say wan quit.. it was bout time to knock off from work.. so i pray and may God bless (like going for crusade..). But he was busy teaching the other student in experiment room.. so i go back office.. minutes later i went back.. he nt there..he juz went back to office.. so i went back..but i see alot staff there..wrong time lol.. mission cancel again..
thn the students from SP attached to same lab as me but under different mentor keep telling me stay is better.. thn another one says things will change one.. time pass very fast one.. i like.. haiz ok.. wat can i do lol..
thn I had a weird dream one day.. dreamt my sch officer sms me loll. I can clearly see the name of the officer..i pressed enter.. the sms msg was sth weird..in front and end there's some words but its very blurry.. but the words in the middle are clear..they are "endure for God"..really i nt making it up.. it really really happen..u dun believe.. ur biz le..its my dream anyway lol. The nxt morning when i wake up.. i can remember the sms very clearly as if it really happened..anway, no harm enduring mah..and afterall that's all i can do.. i alr tried all ways le..family approach le.. frens approach le (what baseball bat la.. burn hse burn car la.. lol.)..sch approach le.. supervisor oso approach le (i gt tok to him when we met along corridors.. he say if u dun uds, keep asking. no choice. juz keep asking)..from thn on i adopt tis attitude.."its better to ask (even at the cost of causing irritation) thn to be unclear and make mistakes".
now the situation indeed improve.. my mentor joke more often wif me.. i sometimes have small chats wif him.. but i always have to keep in mind to avoid mistakes (large or small), be enthusiastic, positive and regardless of wat happens..the occasional mistakes..occasional bad day..juz no matter how hard u fall.. nvm.. Stand upstraight and nv say die haha. Actaully wat i read b4 from bible really comes useful here.. be enduring and patient..throw all pride away keep none if u wan to live lol.. fill urself with passion n love.. it really keep things going regardless how difficult things goes.. nw if u ask me.. i wan to stay in tis attachment..true tat i still dont uds what i am doing in the lab..and when my mentor explains, it gets all pHD, or maybe master..honors..watever lol. I duno wat'll happen tmr. Today or tis moment he joke and smile. Tmr? minutes, hours later? i duno.. and how well/badly will i be graded i oso duno. I may fail, I may pass.. no idea..but i noe the 6mths gonna be memorable.. may God keep blessing, i keep praying and things get going. And i guess i will NOT enter genetics field nxt time.. darn difficult for me..it makes me wan to stop science and go into other fields..business etc lol..though i think biz is nt easy oso.. my bro study economics.. pretty tough..alot complicated mathematics..graphs.. @_@
anyway sidetrack a bit.. in my experiment room, there's 3 microscopes mah.. 1 belongs to my mentor, 1 to me, 1 to a lab assistant from opposite lab. Sometimes during microscopy work, i will chat wif tat lab assistant (when my mentor not in). And guess wat? lol. He told me my mentor scold b4 his boss even though my mentor work-rank is lower than his boss lol! And my mentor oso once scolded him b4 haha. Power la.. lol.. i duno wat to say haha.
So yup.. tats all.. btw guys i may be playing less cabal nowadays..but after mth of august..which is end of my attachment..my lvl may go exponential..haha.
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